Whenever I start reminiscing events from my past, I notice the following:
- I can revoke it as I lived it then, involving all external characters, the situation, surrounding, etc.
- I generally speak in the first-person, ie., I did this, I saw this. (Even while re-running the reel of the past, I can see myself addressing or referring to the others in memory as 'you' or 'they')
After the memory is exhausted, I can feel that it is connected to some other event of my life before or after it. Sometimes, I can even conjure up certain of my set-practices and beliefs as springing from some of these events. More and more, this leads me to believe as if I am still the same
at the basic, and just more and more has been added to or subtracted from it. It is in some ways a solidarity with myself, a kind of a constancy.
25th July, 2010
